So, being a “good student”, I then hurry toward FEELING,
running away from
THINKING. This, of course, produces some not inconsiderable discomfort
(read “scared-as-hell"), because I like THINKING, I am good at it, and that
FEELINGS were not supported or encouraged or nourished in my family,
as a child.
(dangerous-don’t go there-Oh, damn,
I have to, I want to be a therapist”)
So I make a choice closer to “FEEL”, to experiment with how
feelings can
add value to my life, now that I am grown-up and I am told that I need a new
balance about feelings / thinking.
- BUT -
Finding “FEELINGS” in a relationship is scary
Having fun with someone who “FEELS” is scary
Identifying problems about “FEELINGS” is hard to do
Solving problems about “FEELINGS” is even harder
“Having” FEELINGS, not thinking about them, is scary
Learning about FEELINGS is feeling not thinking
They say I SHOULD find value in paying attention to my feelings.
So now I place an “X” where I might find a personal balance point
about how
much THINKING should run my life and how much
FEELING should, or at
least, could run my life. (They [professional mental health
people] said . . . ) |
